Thursday, September 30, 2010

Bittersweet memories!!

a song which i am in love with lately!!

Thursday, August 26, 2010


Right now, im fucked up with the shit going in my head, i dont really know whats going on, trying to fight every single question from my father... Why?? Where?? How??
I wanted to go to the UK for a year to complete my AS level then move to Canada but everybody wants me to do that AS level here. Oh c'mon ?? this sucks totally!!
Now its decided for me to go to Canada after a year ..... and i just cant fight it....

I guess they're old enough to tell me ... so i stay here in pakistan!!

Monday, August 16, 2010


Okay so its 2:26Am and im here sitting here all alone in the lounge.
Everyones asleep and im here alone bored... actually not much because i just watched a match and it happens to be fun when the team you support is winning.. lol so i win it AGAIN from ehab.. MANCHESTER UNITED ROCKS FOREVER!!
These days have become boring, just totally boring crap. Im a school-less which makes me even more "vela" than ever!! I hear my friends talking about admissions for their a-levels which kills me because i cant wait any longer to move to Canada. I just got my result so now i can finally apply for college.
I got nothing better to do except Movies, Guitaring, music, football thats it!!

Okay now i'd just get something to eat

Thursday, August 5, 2010


Its about time, when i started getting pissed, conjusted in myself, but there was a reason to keep me entertained.
Abdullah and I planned ps-2 session, which totally worked for not only me but him aswell. Pro is something that can never let anyone go bored for sure ( p.s only football/soccer gamers)
I went over to his place and we both realised it was actually real fun... Even though he beat me everytime but still i was in a learning stage =P
We played aand played the whole day but then mum called and we realised it was almost 10 pm..we'd been playing the whole fucking day ?? phr we sneaaked out to gymkhana...
best place for everything ^_^
Its fun these days with all my friends around !!


Nothing lasts forever (p.s a song by maroon5)
Now i finally realize how time moves on and people eventually get carried onto it. I never knew how 'goofy' i was... Even she kept telling me but now i finally realize, its never too late in learning..
They say leave the lost and dead behind, now i agree. But why now?? thats the question i keep asking myself!!
I'll find my way through and nothing in this world can stop me!
Waise its good to be single =) i likes it.....
Im just over it ... yeah thats the reality!! everything!! NO REGRETS!!
Life is to enjoy no matter in company or alone...
But these days its really good!!!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

A little too late?

Just a couple of words can ruin your life i noticed it that day.
So easily she let it out: * You did everything to push me away, you never loved me *
After all those years she never coulda see me through, what i was, who i was!!
I did everything i could just to not let you slip away, but i never made you see it. A loser as always i was, but today i say only "a loser".
It still gets hard to believe all this happening, sometimes i try consoling myself as if its just a stupid ugly dream which will soon be over But how to believe it NOW!!
After all those dreams we had! Was it a joke or i guess i was a Joke !

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

15th June

*Knock Knock* *12am* As i entered the door i saw my friend shocked to see me at his place. Of course anybody would've been to see someone at their door at 12AM !
I went to hug him and for a second i felt him crying... it was all i couldn't control!!
he brought me in and i suddenly realized that someone was waiting to wish him too.

I called her and saw him shine brighter than ever =)

It was a crowd of three of us, around the middle of night having FUN!!
Ehab then decided to order *hot dogs* , we both thought of as if he was a vegetarian.
He convinced mum and dad and i was finally sleeping over at his place, i couldn't believe that this was the first time MY parents allowed me to stay, perhaps EHAB Was quite special =P..

Okay so the conversations kept getting longer every minute, and ehab was like whats this going on , and on my BIRTHDAY!!
We had to make the C.V and we made it together and a wonderful one...
With all those not necessary details which meant alot more to me <3

We decided to watch a movie then, but in 20 min ehab fell asleep!
Then it was only me watching it all alone...
I couldnt sleep properly after it...

Then in the morning we started off with our journey to trg but that journey wasnt just like a simple normal one, it tool us hours roaming the same place again and again!! well it was real fun....

Ehab turned 17 that day and i was very much jealous =p jk.
It all ended around 5pm, and we were all exhausted!!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


I never knew how this venom would deeply affect me but only after i got her medicated.
As the days passed i kept thinking of our life and thought that it was all perfect but just when this venom, this fucking feeling I got which made me go crazy that day. I threw away my phone and went deep in state of "coma" . I didn't know what I was doing. I was supposed to text her but instead started cursing my life. I felt as if I was all alone travelling the dark path...

It was all so messed up, didn't know what to do...

That night when i got up from this state of coma and began fixing my phone. A list of texts came running on the screen. It belonged to her which said, "Please, Please, don't go away" ...

I felt as if a bullet had went pass my chest...

Tears began rolling down my eyes crashing down at the floor. I never wanted this to happen but somehow I MADE IT HAPPEN!!!

I got another text saying that she was in HOSPITAL!!! I couldn't believe my eyes.
I was the reason for all this, I!! I fell down to my knees, thinking of how she would be feeling because of me!! I could've never thought of getting her medicated! I loved her more than anything, but tonight that venom tried to take over!!

I never ever wanted this for US!! I loved her and forever will...I decided to do everything i can to get her back, get that smile on that face. Promised to never EVER LET GO OF HER!!!


Thursday, May 27, 2010

One step back

Sometimes, people turn so confused even when everything has been planned.
For instance to love someone isn't the problem, the problem is how to express it....The person fears that what if they go tslk to him/her then they might get dumped or refused or even if its a boy getting slapped back.

Sometimes people even after knowing that the other person also likes him/her is still silent...
well, i don't really get it Why?? do people play such games with their hearts. even after knowing it kills them every moment without their love..... WHY????

I come up that all this is a circle revolving around us, sometimes things go as expected and someimes things don't just work at All!
I am still looking for an answer????




Well my first post on my blog... =D

H.R.7 means Hassan Rizwan 7... well actually this was choosen cuz i am a fan of cristiano ronaldo the famous soccer player and he is known by the name of C.R.7. lol.

Well im getting of my o-levels finally then surely i'd be posting stuff so people do check it out....

till then later,